I am feeling a little guilty about not loosing weight for my wedding. I have a list of excuses a mile long (I had no place to cook all summer becuase of the renos, it's too hot to run..). I could go on. But it doesn't change the fact that I still feel bad about it.

I weigh like, 158 lbs right now. This is my peak. And most people who get married are at their ideal weight. In a way, it's been good becuase I have been consumed with the idea of having to "fit into my dress".

I though when I got engaged that this would be the ideal motivator. It wasn't. I just crave sugar all day long. My will power is crap. I can go all day without junk, and I feel so proud, and still, I binge at the end of the night.

Take yesterday for example. I ate good all day. And then, at midnight (in the middle of poker with Brian and Rob) I mowed down the pizza they ordered. I was so mad at myself afterward.

Speaking of poker. It was my primary excuse for not running yesterday. Rob was helping us move, and one of the first things they moved was the poker table (suprise?). So, they set it up, and that was the end of my nignt. On a postivite note, I kicked some Poker Ass last night. I cleaned those boys out for my first official win. Woo Hoo!

The house looks good. It was like a little sauna last night. It was so hot. We were dripping. Even the fridge wasn't cool enough. We started unpakcing kitchen things, so I could actually cook dinner last night (I was hot with the stove on). I went to Lee Valley & got the cutest ( I mean coolest) handles for the cabinets. I got there and back in 1an hour and fifteen minutes. ( These trips into the city are getting to be a real pain in the @$$).

Today is suppose to be hotterthan yesterday, and tomorrow I think we're going to reach 34. Yikes. Luckily the Air Conditioning is working at the store. It's pretty cool in here. For now.

We have a 30% off coupon today. I hope we're busy, so far we've been steady. Not too bad.

I am wearing the WORLDS SHORTEST SHORTS today. I feel a little self concious in them. So it doesn't help that I got a nice gash on the size of my beautiful (unshaven (but I didn't realise until I left the house)) legs. Now there's a nice bloody band-aid as well.

Tonight is my shower. But like, no one is coming. So that kind of sucks. Jules, Annette, Viola, Greg& Mike, Leah, Dana, like seriously, none of my friends are coming. Oh well. I understand, summer's are so busy. I'm sure it will be fun.