The Itchy & Scratchy Show

Psoriasis. Add that to my list of stress-related ailments.
At least not Acne. (not yet anyway). So Mandy (my Hero) gave me some T-Gel to ease my pain. And then she treated my head with some meds. It burned, but like, a good burn. Three hours later, I am trying hard to pretend like my head is not bothering me. It is.
Brian worked hard tonight. PROPS. Scraping the stiple off the ceiling. We painted yesterday which made it like cement. Big mistake. He worked so hard. I think there's still a lot more to be done.
I am working tomorrow. There's a couple boxes of new stuff to be unpacked. That should be fun. I love putting out new stock. It's soothing. And fun to see the store fill. I love it. Then maybe tomorrow night I'll Scrapbook. Yeah. That sounds nice.
So...
Off to bed sleepy...no...itchy head.

Crash Into Me.

It's been a while since I wrote. Things are pretty much out of control.
I am still living at Rob & Mandy's. That means, they are officially the greatest friends of all-time. I hope we can move out in the next day or two.
We got carpet in the new house. And some of the walls are painted. It's starting to look really good. I can't wait until the hardwood is in. Jazzy.
It's hard to keep it all together with no place to call home. I didn't realise how important "home" is. Somewhere to ground you. To help you stay sane. I come home at night and just Crash. So much is running through my head, I can't really even read. Feels weird.
I ordered some stuff from Weddingstar last night. And we did up the budget to the wedding. OUT OF CONTROL. We've had 48 people RSVP so far. I think we'll be at about 75 in the end. Much bigger than I ever planned or wanted. But I realise now, that you don't get what you want in a wedding, unless you can bring yourself to be a total bitch. Instead, I'm just happy to be getting married. And I can't wait until this is all over.
My FAV thing in the last couple weeks has been my Vino. I just love it. And I'm still running on the same $2.52 of gas I put in when I first got it. My mom is coming around to it, I think. I am glad I didn't let her effect my desicion to get it. Really glad. It is as much an "escape" to me as Scrapbooking (which I seem to have NO time for this summer). It feels like I am neglecting everything. My scrapbooking, my store, my "life". And then I feeling nagged to get things done for the house, the wedding ...... blah blah blah.
This posting is all over the place. Makes sense. Suits life right now.

It's a new dawn, it's a new day...and i'm feeling fine.

I had a little "incident" yesterday. It brough up some old "issues" I know I still carry around with me. And I was thinking about it a heck of a lot last night in bed. I thought it would haunt me all day. But it hasn't. I'm dealing well.

I'm a lot different now, than I was 5 years ago (even thou some people never care to see that change). I think most people are. I'm proud of myself and how I am standing up for myself (in my head, not with evreyone in my life. Different issue altogether.). I'm NOT a bad person. I was young and stupid once. Most people were. Get over it. I did. I'm "fine" with myself. I don't LOVE me, but I am working on it. I am not putting up with the judgements, as of NOW.

Last night's photography class was superb. Arlee is fabulous. I learned so much. I am going to be a picture taking "machine" for bit. To get the hang of it all.

Georgette (add her name to my fav. people list, along with Brian & Michelle), came to visit me today. I just loev our friendship. A perfect balance of "venting", giggles, Tim Hortons and all of that other good stuff.

Rob leaves today. Poor Mandy. But it works for them. I admire that. I'd die if Brian had to work away. I am totally too dependant on him. ( Horrible? Maybe.)

Baseball game tonight. So I'm revin' up for the big loss. (Reality is a strong point with our team. Skill is not).

Ok. Going for a Scooter ride. ( Best part of my day?). I want to get a radio for on there. Crusin' with tunes. Nice. I'm out.

Happiness Walks On Busy Feet

Ok. I am happy. But really busy too.

I Brian (my fiance (that word feels weird)) and I are getting married. So this weekend we will start our pre-marriage courses. I hope we pass! Plus there's the planning. That has been taking up a little time. Brian and his Best Man Rob went to get tuxes today. I didnt see them, but I did specify no Baby Blue or Orange. We'll see......

Our house Renovations are coming along strong. Dad is amazing. Works so hard everyday. This wouldn't be possible without him ( I know it....). Brian ordered hardwood flooring today. $5000.00. Made me want to barf. But it's going to look so good. We need to go pick out lighting soon. What an exciting life I lead....

The store is slow. It would keep me up at night a little, but lets face it, I am pretty exhausted, so sleeping is easy peasy. The drop sales is unreal. And we're at a tuff point here. I cant afford to order more, but the store is looking a little bare.... Plus, it's our year end. The accounting bill will probably really make me barf.

I have only been to one baseball game this season. I feel a little bad about that. Our team always loses. Not that I feel I sould change that, but I feel bad.

I have to go. We have a photography class at the store tonight. I'm sitting in on it. Arlee Sybrk is teaching it. She's a great "picture taker" Yay! Michelle Gier is here. One of my fav. people!

See ya! Haley